a warped view

something you're proud of in the past few days So I've been putting off writing this post. Whenever I do one of these blogging things there is always something that puts a road block in my way. One post that brings everything to a screaming halt and destroys any mojo I may have had going. Right now I am struggling to think of anything I'm proud of. It's been a rough month and a half (ish) and my confidence has taken a pretty big hit (again). That ridiculous depression voice is in my ear telling me that all of the worthlessness is me. That I have little, if anything, of value to offer. This isn't helped by losing my contract for work (long, boring story). More proof that I am shit. SHUT UP DEPRESSION VOICE! However I now have a tiny glimmer of awesomeness that I am clinging to. My inflatable life saver of light. I have been offered the opportunity to work on a film next year. Not only that, but I will be working with some of the newest additions to my list o

My two cents

Dear S I know that you don't know what to say to me right now, but I need you to know that you don't have to say anything. Well nothing about that anyway. I miss you a lot though, and I want to talk to you about silly things, unimportant things, our lives, our kids. I don't want you to think that because you haven't spoken to me that there is some sort of unbridgeable gap between us now, there's not, I completely understand. I know that my stuff might have brought up some painful things for you, and for that I am sorry, it was never my intention. I just want you to know that I love you and I miss you... And if you don't talk to me soon I'm going to start stalking you! Much love T xx

Dear Universe We've got a pretty sweet deal going on you and I. I place my faith in you and you generally have faith in me. Sometimes it feels like maybe your faith in me has wavered but its usually just that I don't get what you're trying to show or tell me. All in all we're pretty tight. Now you know I've struggled with this whole direction, purpose, place in life thing. We've been through a whole lot of shit together, and you've seen me grow stronger from it. So now I'm asking you, please, please, please can I have this? Can this be my path? Can this be my place in the world? This or the other thing, or maybe both. You know I've been in love with this my whole life, I'm pretty sure I'd be good at it, I just need that foot in the door and I'm pretty sure I can take it from there. I also know that some people would think I was stretching the friendship a bit at the moment but, if you think I am, can I have a small warning before yo

short term goals for this month and why Oops. I fell a bit behind with my revisiting of the 30 Day Challenge! I've had a bit going on (if you don't know what, read some of the other blog posts). So I figured I'd better get back on track and here we are. I have decided to re-do my short term goals because of the little hiccup I had. So here is Day Eight Take 2 get back to being myself figure out a plan for my medication finish the 30 Day Challenge do some creative writing everyday Pretty simple really but at the same time, oh so very hard.