a warped view

I have been having "one of those days" since Saturday. I have been taking my tablets so it's not that causing a low. We had a birthday party on Saturday for one of my favourite little girls in the whole world, the daughter of friends that I love like she was my niece. I almost didn't go to the party. I was sad, I felt like crying, I felt like getting into bed and pulling the covers over my head until the sad went away. Luckily the HSP was wonderful and convinced me to go, because I would have been disappointed in myself if I had missed it. I made it through the party, I know that sounds terrible, like it was some huge chore (which it wasn't). Well it wouldn't have been for a "normal" person. It wasn't anything about the party that required a huge effort, it was me, my state of mind. The effort needed to put on the happy mask, the mask that hides the darkness inside. I don't hide my depression but I don't want it to be in every one's

My middle child, master 10 (almost 11) is a beautiful boy. He is sensitive, polite, caring, intelligent, he cares about other people and how they feel, he notices things others wouldn't and he often compliments me that I look beautiful. He likes to read, he's good at maths, he enjoys cooking and he is a fantastic distance runner. He is, of course, not perfect and he and his sister (miss 13) are very good at stirring each other up! He knows just the buttons to push to send her into full princess bitch face mode. He has the regular issues that 10 year old boys have. Sometimes he gets a bit silly, sometimes he doesn't listen, he doesn't really like doing chores and he has issues at school. My master 10 however is different from most other 10 year old boys. My master 10 was expelled from school when he was in grade 2, at the age of 7. It is not something either of us is proud of. It is not a stigma I would choose to have attached to my child but it is the reality we mus

Thanks to my amazing friend Simon I discovered the Casetagram website! By linking up with your instagram account you can create a custom iPhone case featuring your very own photos! There are four different layout options to choose from and the delivery is super quick! Mine just arrived today and features my family, friends, our puppies, my tattoo, some of my favourite places and of course food! The quality of the cover is pretty good although the edges where the pictures meet the sides of the case are a little rough. I imagine the quality will only get better the more they make. The case has a lovely matte finish and the photos themselves are of the quality you would expect from instagram pics taken on the iPhone. I think I will probably order another one in 6 to 12 months because I will have taken heaps more pics by then!! 

As the mother of three children, with one about to start high school I know that next year I will need to be more organised than I ever have before! Miss 13 has been accepted into a specialist music program and there will be lots of after school commitments. When I saw the Masterplan Diary I knew it was exactly what I needed! The Diary has a week to a page and has a section where you can record individual activities for each family member. There is also a box at the start of each week where you can record the important to-dos for the week and a section where the dedicated meal planner can record the dinners for the week. This is the perfect diary for mums! The added bonus for me is that not only is it a highly functional diary it is so very pretty! You can buy your very own from NoteMaker. (one of my favourite websites)

Ever since I was little I have wanted to be the kind of person who writes in a journal every day. I constantly buy lovely journals with the intention of writing in them, filling them with my thoughts and feelings, pouring my soul into them. I love to write, to express myself with words, to create something from nothing, it's probably why I also like to bake. The problem is that I can never maintain any kind of regular writing, whether it be about myself and my life or creative writing. It was the same when I started my blog. I thought to myself that I would write all the time, that it would be easier to blog than write with pen and paper but I have once again fallen into the pattern of not writing regularly. I often wonder if my inability to maintain schedules, complete things, do things regularly, is part of my depression. I find it hard now to know what is because of my depression and what is due to flaws in my character. I have chronic depression, the chronic part means that I