a warped view

Dear Captain Picard, This is another one of those unsent letters that isn't really an unsent letter because I know that you're going to read it. I'm hoping that you won't be too annoyed at me for writing this but I felt like I needed to. You've been the most amazing friend to me. You've allowed me to feel safe enough to be myself, you've given me a shoulder to cry on and you've listened to me when I've needed to talk. You've made me open up, made me trust, made me remember what it's like to not have to keep myself shielded all the time. In the past, life has taught me (and my depression has told me) that people can't be trusted, that eventually everyone will let me down, that eventually the real me will drive everyone away. It has left me with an almost impenetrable wall to keep me safe, it's left me afraid to let people in. You've seen beyond that and you've had the patience to find your way inside. You've been brav...

a habit that you wish you didn’t have the 2010 Day Four post can be found here where to start?! I have quite a few bad habits that I wish I didn't have and I can think of a few that other people wish I didn't have as well! My worst two habits are biting my nails and eating when I'm bored. I had stopped biting my nails for a while but I always go back to it when I'm feeling particularly anxious. Apparently the new drugs for my ADHD will help me get the eating thing under control though so that'll be one less bad habit. My mum would probably consider my swearing a bad habit (despite the fact that I love it) and she probably would also like me to be slightly less argumentative. The HSP would have a pretty long list of bad habits/annoying things I do including forgetting the washing is in the washing machine (sometimes several times), singing loudly and out of tune, not paying attention to what we're watching and then asking lots of questions ab...

a picture of you and your friends the 2010 day three blog post can be found here  however all the picture links from my old posts seem to be broken :( This is some pics of my most favourite people in the whole world These photos are from my birthday last month and sadly not all my favourite people could be there Me & Clint Justin & Me Karen & Me Me & Marie Me & Mill Sean & Me Me & Simon Me & Tina Tina F, Me, Jackie & my Mum Here's some pics of friends I either don't have pics of me with or don't have recent pics together Ben & Bec Erin & Me If I had a pic of Suzie I'd add that as well but sadly I don't! Must remedy that!

the meaning behind your blog name the 2010 Day Two post can be found here My blog is called a warped view because it is a collection of blog posts about how i see the world, my unique (and some might say unusual) way of viewing events, circumstances, people etc. I wear tif coloured glasses and they warp everything. My depression certainly changes the way i interact with the world and its inhabitants, as does my experience as a woman, a mother, daughter, wife and friend. i believe that each of us wears our own set of glasses that colour our world with the sum of our experiences, we're all a little warped really.

My first day on dexamphetamines! And yes I realise that $50 x 200 pills is $10,000 not $1000 but I have ADHD and my brain got distracted! I've also been informed that they don't sell for quite that much (thanks Glenn) :)

a recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself I'm revisting the 30 Day Challenge . My 2010 Day One post can be found here  (I haven't looked at what I wrote, so I wonder if any of my facts will be the same?!) Here's a pic of me with bluey purple hair and no makeup taken right now!  interesting facts: 1. I have always wanted to have brightly coloured far out hair but was too afraid to do it until this year  2. In high school I was so worried about being teased by my bullies that I was afraid to change my hair or get a haircut in case I got the "wrong" one and they teased me more 3. I spent years trying to convince my mum to let me have a fringe. I finally got one a few years ago and now hate my face without a fringe. 4. I am obsessed with bird, owl and tree motifs (not necessarily all three together) 5. I've just been diagnosed with ADHD and I couldn't be happier 6. my favourite TV show right now is The New Girl w...

So I have spoken about my suspicions that I have ADHD both here and on twitter. I went and had my first appointment with the special ADHD doctor two weeks ago and because I was unable to find my school reports I had to go back for a second appointment with a letter from one of my parents talking about how they noticed ADHD symptoms in me when I was younger. Apparently the Health Department are quite strict about who they let doctors prescribe ADHD medication to (surprise surprise) and it is their requirement for there to be some evidence of childhood symptoms. My first port of call was my mum, surely she would be able to write a letter containing a list of things I had done as a child? This proved to be slightly more difficult as she expressed to me her belief that I didn't have problems concentrating at school. When I pointed out to her that every single one of my school reports contained something along the lines of "Tiffany talks too much", her reply was simply th...

Just over two years ago I began this blog with the 30 Day Challenge. I was in a new place in my life and over the last two years I've grown a lot and become much more comfortable with who I am. I feel like I'm a different person again than I was two years ago... or maybe just more me than   was before. So I thought I'd do the 30 Day Challenge again, to see just how different my answers are now than they were in October 2010. Oh and I'm also hoping it will help me to get back into good blogging habits! Here's a reminder of what the challenge involves: What is The 30 Day Challenge? Here's how it works  - post every day for 30 days : day 1 - a recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself day  2 - the meaning behind your blog name day 3 - a picture of you and your friends day 4 - a habit that you wish you didn’t have day 5 - a picture of somewhere you've been to day 6 - favorite super hero and why day 7 - a picture of someone/so...

one of my most favourite people in the world wrote a blog today about how she feels like she isn't doing anything significant with her life but more importantly, she feels like she doesn't have a best friend, a close friend. this made me so sad, and it made me stop and wonder about the subconscious messages that i am sending my friends. when i am feeling down or dark i hide myself away. i struggle to interact with the world, even with those closest to me. i refuse to talk on the phone and am struck down with anxiety every time it rings. my once safe haven, twitter, sometimes feels too big, too loud, too much so i even hide from that. this makes it hard for people to be friends with me i'm sure, its hard to be friends with someone who is absent a lot of the time. sometimes i feel that i must appear like a ghost in people's lives, they know i'm there but they can't see me. i don't mean to shut my friends out and a part of me thinks i am protecting them. ke...